last weekend was good. i finally found the much-needed alcohol fix i've been wanting to have for a long time, with good friends from one of the two bands i currently play guitar for (Moyg, check us out if you got time...) and with friends from another band called Badburn. those guys are great, and can totally hold their booze so as we adjourned at sunrise, i really felt like i had gotten rid of so much tension and shit. sort of like taking a big dump after holding it for hours. it's come to be quite the habit again for me... lookng forward to nice cold brews after a loooong week.
sure enough, the stress is back from i don't know where. i'm pretty sure i'm not stuck in one of those damn ruts, but i guess it's sort of getting harder as we all get older. funny, i never thought about growing old, and i guess all this recklessness comes from some sick urge not to make it to 40. pretty fucked up huh?
but i think people either got to be pretty rich or must have a lot more escapes i am not aware of yet to want to live after that. i have nothing against people who are over 40, mind you... it's just that i can't see myself aging gracefully, right now. i guess it's never a good thing to look too far into the future, but hey, what else is there to do when you're stuck in a crap country with a crap economy and with 70% crap people with bad attitudes? i fucking swear, if not for friends who help keep me sane and if ourprison system wasn't so screwed, i'd buy a shotgun and blow every-fucking-body the fuck away. seriously. this isn't some teenage-emo-angst shit, but take a look around: ya got morons in the government, morons in the streets wearing moron shirts and jeans, morons in the churches preaching clueless morons how to be holy morons, and morons like myself who despise morons for kicks. it sort of gets ya thinking... how the hell did everything and everybody get so moronic? i swear, when i was five years old, the only morons were 1) desntists who didn't give me free candy after my monthly check-up, 2) doctors who stuck needles into me (but that was also fun as it sort of opened my young innocent eyes to the wonders of drug abuse), and 3) my ignorant Filipino science teacher who didn't know what the fuck Krill was and who didn't know that chestnuts were covered by a spiky shell thingie. (oh yeah, Krill are like small, microscopic organisms that resemble shrimp, which whales eat by the hundreds... a little trivia for all you people who never read science books or spent too much time in front of the TV).
fuck i need something to calm myself. i just might buy that shotgun.
let's see... beer...check. ipod...check. cigarettes...check. time for a break.
hey jade, i've also been listening to a lot of Mae lately. it sort of gets you in a weird mood doesn't it? god must be having a blast knowing that they're christian.
good, good song. i'm calm now.
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"We're So Far Away"
The Everglow
Mae
remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
did you know, what you were doing, did you know?
did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t really think so.
but the night came down and swept us away...
and the stars they seemed
to paint the most elaborate scene today...
how could we know?
that song, this show,
we'd learn so much about ourselves?
from Toledo, to Tokyo,
the words were scribed on every page,
and now there’s books up on our shelves.
did you know how you would move us, did you know?
when the lights first came upon us,
and we saw The Everglow...
and the moment's magic swept us away,
and the young man's dream was almost seen so plain...
when was the night
that showed us the sign?
revealed in the sky, to leave all behind...
but where to begin?
throwing caution to the wind,
we reached for the stars,
everything was now ours...
did you know how you would move me, did you know?
did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t even think so...
but the moment's magic swept us away...
and it’s so close, but we’re so far away...
it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
sure enough, the stress is back from i don't know where. i'm pretty sure i'm not stuck in one of those damn ruts, but i guess it's sort of getting harder as we all get older. funny, i never thought about growing old, and i guess all this recklessness comes from some sick urge not to make it to 40. pretty fucked up huh?
but i think people either got to be pretty rich or must have a lot more escapes i am not aware of yet to want to live after that. i have nothing against people who are over 40, mind you... it's just that i can't see myself aging gracefully, right now. i guess it's never a good thing to look too far into the future, but hey, what else is there to do when you're stuck in a crap country with a crap economy and with 70% crap people with bad attitudes? i fucking swear, if not for friends who help keep me sane and if ourprison system wasn't so screwed, i'd buy a shotgun and blow every-fucking-body the fuck away. seriously. this isn't some teenage-emo-angst shit, but take a look around: ya got morons in the government, morons in the streets wearing moron shirts and jeans, morons in the churches preaching clueless morons how to be holy morons, and morons like myself who despise morons for kicks. it sort of gets ya thinking... how the hell did everything and everybody get so moronic? i swear, when i was five years old, the only morons were 1) desntists who didn't give me free candy after my monthly check-up, 2) doctors who stuck needles into me (but that was also fun as it sort of opened my young innocent eyes to the wonders of drug abuse), and 3) my ignorant Filipino science teacher who didn't know what the fuck Krill was and who didn't know that chestnuts were covered by a spiky shell thingie. (oh yeah, Krill are like small, microscopic organisms that resemble shrimp, which whales eat by the hundreds... a little trivia for all you people who never read science books or spent too much time in front of the TV).
fuck i need something to calm myself. i just might buy that shotgun.
let's see... beer...check. ipod...check. cigarettes...check. time for a break.
hey jade, i've also been listening to a lot of Mae lately. it sort of gets you in a weird mood doesn't it? god must be having a blast knowing that they're christian.
good, good song. i'm calm now.
+++
"We're So Far Away"
The Everglow
Mae
remembering, everything,
about my world and when you came.
wondering, the change you’d bring,
means nothing else would be the same.
did you know, what you were doing, did you know?
did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t really think so.
but the night came down and swept us away...
and the stars they seemed
to paint the most elaborate scene today...
how could we know?
that song, this show,
we'd learn so much about ourselves?
from Toledo, to Tokyo,
the words were scribed on every page,
and now there’s books up on our shelves.
did you know how you would move us, did you know?
when the lights first came upon us,
and we saw The Everglow...
and the moment's magic swept us away,
and the young man's dream was almost seen so plain...
when was the night
that showed us the sign?
revealed in the sky, to leave all behind...
but where to begin?
throwing caution to the wind,
we reached for the stars,
everything was now ours...
did you know how you would move me, did you know?
did you know how you would move me?
well, I don’t even think so...
but the moment's magic swept us away...
and it’s so close, but we’re so far away...
it’s so close, but we’re so far away.
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